empty...... empty..........

my heart is felt empty....
no matter how im fill up my life
my life still felt empty....


since i broke up wit him.....
my heart like missing sumting....
i hv bought alot alot alot of new year shirt...
but....i felt not satisfied too...

i dunno y....really dunno y....??
i jus felt like not enuf, not enuf, n not enuf....
im trying to make myself busy....to fill my heart...
but...my heart still empty....
btw...actually....
nicol's body cannot tahan ady...im quite tired ady....
everyday....felt tat my body has no more energy....no more spirit....felt sleepy...


i m asking my self....isit all bcos of my ex...??
isit all bcos of im jus broke...??
i dunno....
but...the thing tat i noe is....i hv decided to leave tis relation away....
i will never never never b together wit him anymore...
not bcos of i hate him....is bcos of i dun wan to let de same sadness to repeat...
my mine is very clear bout wat was happening now...

nicol love to be protected....
may b...now....im...
less of sum 1 tat can protect me...
less of sum 1 tat can let me to release my feeling...
less of sum 1 tat can let me release bad mood....
less of sum 1 tat can talk wit me...
less of sum 1 tat manja me....
less of sum 1 tat sayang me....
less of sum 1 tat always care of me...
less of sum 1 tat can share all my stuff...

so...may b....of tis.....i felt empty gua...??
yes anot leh...?? i oso dunno leh...^^ hehe...^^

may b bcos of tis...my mood change very constantly....
tis few day i really very moody...
haih....
is bcos of im too tired la..??or..........(dunno wat)hehe....^^

now......sum of u might think tat....im sure very sad now.... isit...??
actually....im not o....
im quite peace ,quite quiet leh....hehe.....^^