a blog for nicol~~soli to nicol

tis few day...i really lost myself...
n...i hv done sumting tat really very soli to myself..
i really wanna to say soli to myself...soli nicol fong lai kuan

{{ok..when i saying bout im soli to myself...sure got sum1 think bout '1 nite stand' thingy rite...?
but...tat is NOT...ok...??
frens...dun think too much...}}

i dunno wat was happening to me....
i jus mess up wit myself...
i noe i hv to take the responsibility to myself as well..
i cant blame any1...
who i can blame to......is myself...
it all caused by my stupidity...

i oso get scared on wat im doin...
i cry...i cry for few days of my stupidity....
thn....wat use...?? no 1 will pity to u~nicol fong...
do u noe...no 1 will care bout u...no 1 will sympathy to u on wat u doin...

since...i m so confusing wit myself..
at last...i sort out wit sum solution...
i wanna change my life..
my life is in my hand...its control by the owner itself...
so...wat i did to it...the life will goes to wat i did...!!

at least...today i hv a more stable thinking in my mind...
i hv decide to take 5 subject in tis sem..(actually i wanna take 6, but my senior advice not to do tat)
i will join for NSQKL committee member too...(will go for training in next month)

may b....busyness can make myself felt comfortable with my life....
i still considering in taking 6 subject or 5 subject now...

thanks god....thanks for u clear my mind today...
letting me to hv sum clear mind to think of wat i can do...
anyway...thanks to sum of my frens tat accompany for tis few days as well..
although u all not really noe wat was happening to me...
but...thanks for accompany in tis few days...

i still worry bout my felling n thinking....they definitely will keep changing...
recently i am not in a very stable mood n feeling...

anyway....nicol...pls b tough...ok..??
although if there r no 1 beside wit u...although if u r alone...u oso hv to b tough...
u r not allow to give up....
k...??

soli nicol fong lai kuan....